Morning feeling poised on the edge wandering watering plants taking in nature trying to find peace instead this feeling I'm not facing keep busy look the other way but here it comes welling up inside the grief a few tender tears a moment of remembering and on with the day still if only I'd slept last night perhaps I'd feel more energized more in touch but really I'd just be doing more and feeling less being tired does that to me brings the emotions back to the surface the feeling of being out of control the need to surrender okay I surrender