This is about me

Content warning: swear words This is not about you this is not about being mean to you this is not about not loving you this is not about wanting a man-bun this is about me this is about me crashing this is about the past rearing its ugly head and dominating my world this is about the core of me feeling like it's whirling into a million tiny pieces sprayed out into the universe this is about all the things - the things I didn't finish the places in me that feel unlovable the parts of me I've kept in check for too damned long this is about the tears that don't want to stop this is about the aging of my body this is about the things done to me too long ago to remember this is about a lifetime of saying yes when I really wanted to say no this is about playing it safe rather than saying fuck it and dancing wild in the streets this is about all the times no one listened this is about all the times I felt insignificant this is about healing my heart and claiming my soul and being my fully wild self this is not about you this is about me